the divine sublime

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 18:57:07 GMT

I am sooooooooooo tired of being myself. I can't seem to get anything done. My life is useless, like it is now. I have goals and I know what I want from life but having so much free time makes me waste so much of my precious time. One problem is that I'm forgiving myself (normally I feel huge pangs of guilt --I still do but I'm being forgiving) for this and as a result I think I indulge in it much more. Six months of my life kinda wasted. I mean I'm making a lot of progress I think but it would all go so much quicker weren't I so freakin' dumb. Anyway, I'm leaving on Sat to visit friends and family, and when I'm back I hope to have changed things around and made a sensible plan for next semester/year.

xxoo,
mw

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 03:15:58 GMT

OK, I'm reading a tree grows in brooklyn and oh bell hooks, whose book I adore. In a month or so I'll go back to the middle of nowhere to tell everyone I'm not going to be back. I'm eating lots of avocados these days. I love them slightly unripe. My roommate's in India at the moment, will be fun to have her back.

So long,
mw

Wed, 09 Jun 2004 04:31:52 GMT

So i cleaned the whole freakin house now. It smells like orange, it tastes like orange, it feel like orange.
its marvelous.
you guys should all check it out. im vry proud of myself, i got into cleaning mode; i did nothing but that all day, pretty much. went out with the girls for a bit but nothing too special. julie has a new boyfriend, and im happy about that. he's a hottie!
ok i think im going to eat some of that chocolate mousse bomb that was left from the party last night and then take a bubble bath and then go to bed.
night...

shhhhhhhh....

Wed, 05 May 2004 00:48:55 GMT

yeah seriously, im going to do it. now. i hate the freakin thing. but one must. one has to. seriously.

bite my thigh

Tue, 04 May 2004 05:09:56 GMT

You are the seductress pin-up! You are
self-explanatory. You slut!

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Wed, 28 Apr 2004 20:59:12 GMT

stupidly
i continue to hurt myself
it's like a train
in motion
and i never like it when people say
that i suck
no wonders! well, i hope that
at least
the parties this weekend
will make me feel
like cotton candy

Wed, 28 Apr 2004 17:33:03 GMT

hopefully
he's not yelping
in his sleep
in a second
i'll wake him up

Tue, 27 Apr 2004 14:20:28 GMT

my antisocial breakfast was fun this morning. my hallmate and i tried to accomplish something, but it was way too hard, with the bustlings of the nests and schmoozy types wanting to sit with us; but especially the sweet and tickling aroma of the vanilla tea made it impossible for me to concentrate.
anyways. had not-so-unpleasant dreams last night (was expecting them).
it's sunny to-day. i still miss the spring that was here a couple of weeks ago.